I always love this time of year. Don't get me wrong.... winter has always been my least favorite season. Things are different now. From Christmas until the end of March has become one of my most favorite times of the year. It has been a time of reflection, happiness, and pure and utter awe at power of our Lord!
In January 2007, we were struggling with adoption loss. Our hearts were just broken. While watching the Super Bowl, February 4, 2007, we got the call that would forever change our lives. My DH was at work and I could hardly tell him the news. It was bittersweet to hear and hard to believe when we had just lived through an adoption loss 4 weeks before. We tried to be excited and guarded at the same time. It was so difficult to feel so much joy and also know the reality of the fear we had in our hearts.
We had signed with our agency to have a closed adoption. When we got "the call", we were also told A & D wanted to meet us. We were very nervous about meeting them. Our previous adoption loss kept coming to our minds. Two days later we met them. The following six weeks were a whirlwind of doctor appointments and dinners with A & D, baby showers, and getting ready for the arrival of our daughter. The closer it came to her arrival, the more we were amazed at how much we were in love with her! We were also amazed at our growing relationship with A & D. We are so thankful for the time we spent getting to know them. They are two of the most amazing people and we love them so much!
We went to the hospital with A & D on March 18th. We spent the next 22 hours talking, laughing and crying together. Finally on Monday, March 19th we had the unbelievable experience of watching our beautiful daughter enter the world. Kaylee was (and still is) the most amazing gift! We spent the next 48 hours with so many friends and family coming up to the hospital to see Kaylee. Everyone also had the chance to meet A & D and spend time with them. Amazing does not even begin to explain our experience!
On March 21st, we shared a very tearful goodbye with A & D. None of us could believe the journey was over. Our hearts ached for them and what they were losing! I still cannot look at the pictures of them holding her for the last time at the hospital without crying. I think it was the first time in my life I truly witnessed something so beautiful, so painful, so selfless and so pure all wrapped into one.
John and I realized our "closed" adoption had become anything but that!! Do we have any regrets about how things did not turn out like we planned? I almost laugh at that thought. We never planned on forming a family through adoption. Once our hearts were open to adoption, we never planned on any form of an open adoption. We have no regrets about how our daughter came to us or about our relationship with her first family. We truly believe it happened exactly the way it was meant to be..... exactly the way God planned!
Every day we are thankful for our wonderful blessings!
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